Tainted Love~5

The curtain falls...

Waves come crashing down on you...

An eclipse...

You are numb...not in pain...but numb...apathetic...unable to react...you are too weak to stand...your body collapses as your heart stops beating...you feel as if someone has just drawn all the vapours of life from your very being...

the silence is explosive...you unleash a painful scream from deep within...but the shock has muted you...your lips...your tongue...your vocal chords...all frozen...all cold...

Disbelief.

Confusion.

Madness.

The split was tectonic...but his clinical detachment...his disaffected,casual words...how could he even bear to speak as if he was making a trivial announcement? like "the weather today is really hot..."or " I like my coffee black"...all so unreal...all so unconvincing...

but it is true,dear girl...he has had his fun.

"Thanks for the moet and chandon...thanks for letting me have the RX8 on weekends...Thanks for the swanky clothes...they look brilliant on me...but don't you think they look so..." last year"? Oh...and the foie gras at Les Amis is really as good as the magazines say it is...now that i've tasted it...Oh,and by the way...i'd like you to meet S....i've been seeing her for a month already and i think it is time to introduce her to my good friends...like you..."

you struggle like a guppy that has jumped onto the carpet and is gasping for air.

and wish that the whole world would just die and leave you alone...

and then you have an epiphany...

the whole world can't die at once...but what if a better world lies yonder...one where the bluebirds in the trees sang for you only...where the very land is just one big rose garden?where time and space does not exist...and you are forever 25?

A world with no love and hate...no passion or desire...no darkness or pain...

A beautiful world.