What I'm listening to now...so inspirational and powerful...simply great. 

Hand in my Pocket
From Jagged Little Pill

I'm broke but I'm happy

I'm poor but I'm kind

I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah

I'm high but I'm grounded

I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed

I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby

What it all comes down to

Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine

I've got one hand in my pocket

And the other one is giving a high five

I feel drunk but I'm sober

I'm young and I'm underpaid

I'm tired but I'm working, yeah

I care but I'm restless

I'm here but I'm really gone I'm wrong

and I'm sorry baby

What it all comes down to is that everything's gonna be quite alright

I've got one hand in my pocket

And the other is flicking a cigarette

What is all comes down to

Is that I haven't got it all figured out just yet

I've got one hand in my pocket

And the other one is giving the peace sign

I'm free but I'm focused

I'm green but I'm wise

I'm hard but I'm friendly baby

I'm sad but I'm laughing

I'm brave but I'm chicken shit

I'm sick but I'm pretty baby

What it all boils down to I

s that no one's really got it figured out just yet

I've got one hand in my pocket

And the other one is playing the piano

What it all comes down to my friends

Is that everything's just fine fine fine

I've got one hand in my pocket

And the other one is hailing a taxi cab...

The Daily Masquerade

Suffocating under the layers of gaudy masks
and veneers of well-chosen words...

waiting to exhale...

to breath once again...

the air of innocence...

Going under dark water;

the undercurrents refuse to relinquish...

and I become the succulent prey.

The skies are angry...

and the thunder rages in the bitter heart...

but the placid lake stirs not

a facade of subservient

compliance...

for it too, pretends to be a servant of Man.

but still waters run deep...

and the floods yearn to burst forth.

and what will save Man?

From his foolish assumptions

and his simple delusion

that he is...

The King Of The Universe...

My Dream Gal...Marry me Michelle!

Lonely Man

I search but cannot find

a hand to hold,

a heart that's mine.

Long, long night awaits...

my lover Loneliness-

she shares our

forlorn bed.

From the eaves shadows leer

I try but fail to shield

myself from the horde

and their dark sneer

Reality is dead...

the perfect drug not found

The lonely soul-

in chains, he must be bound

No voice to fill the empty air

No loving touch to bless the thin, dry hair

A silent scream explodes within...

Once I was the pampered child of Love

but now I've fallen...

vanquished...

A pauper...

in my foe's realm...

The Kingdom of Lonely Single Hearts.

My house..haha 

25 things i am thankful for:

1) God

2) The Gift Of The Gab

3) My Family...sometimes a cause of anxiety and trauma

4) A great job...that unfortunately comes with quite alot of associated sh*t.

5) The health to enjoy my life...I appreciate the fact that I have the ability to use all my five senses.

6) A sense of wonder

7) Latin Jazz on my playlist

8) self-deprecating sense of humour...I'm glad i've had the chance to make people laugh...making another person laugh is one of the best things you can do for her.

9) Poetic inclinations and a penchant for the romantic...

10) Moet and Chandon Champagne...1985...the year I was born

11) Canadian Eiswine...

12) Beautiful people as my friends...ALL OF MY FRIENDS ARE BEAUTIFUL ANGELS IN THEIR OWN RIGHT:)

13) The time and silence for reflection and contemplation...OHM.......hahaha!

14) My daily 3 cuppas...

15) My Sony Ericsson k700i...my little baby whom i abuse and misuse...haha

16) My Canon IXUS 4.0...another little baby that i abuse and misuse!

17) My Oakleys...Life's a paradox...now that i've got them i'm too scared to wear them outside...don't want to scratch or spoil it.

18) Cosy Bay...my little piece of Heaven at Stadium Waterfront where i retreat to when i am sad or lonely.

19) The chance to travel while i serve...i reluctantly appreciate this "privelage"...

20) A beautiful home...with a well-manicured garden, a well-stocked kitchen and a well-maintained car.

21) Serendipity...

22) Conscience

23) Guardian Angels.

24) Rainbows and April Showers

25) Haruki Murakami

sleazy face...wadz more...the poison of choice is a blowjob! 

me and bryson 

some say i look like count olaf... 

25 Things to Do By 25

This couple of weeks in camp have been filled with a pristine serenity...it's great to be able to spend some time in camp contemplating, making plans and taking stock of life...sometimes, we need ...good, clean silence...to reflect on the future and how to work towards our dreams.

I've actually written a 5-year plan.

By 25, I want to...

1) Become a qualified driver...This i am certain of achieving before 25

2) Obtain my LLB. (at least second lower honours) and begin the Pupillage and Practical Law Course.

3) Take up beginners' SALSA lessons

4) Build up my Investment Portfolio and earn enough money to hire someone more qualified than me to make my assets grow...and to worry about my money while i do more important stuff.

5) Do a stint in a Bar...

6) Make enough money to afford proper storage facilities for my wine...preferably by renting my own niche in a warehouse...

7) Regain my 6-pack!

8) Be less uncertain of myself and stick to my decisions...unless they are really stupid ones.

9) Move out!
It's not like I want to leave my family or something la...but i do want to start living independantly. ya, being in the army has made me appreciate the freedom of living away from home...

10) Complete the Marathon...

11) ...And attempt the triathlon.

12) Start fighting for a cause! AIDS Awareness...Environmental Conservation...Sustainable Development...Foreign Workers' Welfare...ya, knowing that I can make a difference allows me to lead a more meaningful life...

13) Avoid becoming bitter and cynical...
it's so easy to be both in our competitive and misguided society...Misguided because of the exceedingly high premium we place on criteria like material wealth and educational attainment to judge a person's worth.

14) stay true to myself...and not let the comments of people who don't matter shape my thoughts and feelings.

15) go horse-riding! YEE HAA!!!!

16) fall in love...
Yes,Yes...you can't hurry love...when it comes it comes...yadayadayada...
but i really hope someone really special is going to come into my life and sweep me away in a wave of love and affection...ya...and i don't ever want to play with fire and get burnt again.

17) Compile my very own anthology of love poetry!

18) Meet many, many new friends WHILE retaining old friendships...
I have the most horrible tendency of losing touch with old friends when new people come into my life...gotta find time for old friends as well...haha

19) Meet more ANGELS!!!
Ya, i really hope that nice people will continue coming into my life...The goodness and humanity of the people around me really motivate me and give me strength.

20) Have a mentor...someone who can point out all my stupid mistakes and open my eyes to the world.

21) Be able to charm every single person I meet with my personality...haha...

22) Throw a big party for my mum to celebrate my 21st birthday...cos both of us were born on the same day! I wanna do something to thank her for all her care and sacrifices.

23) TRAVEL!
I want to go to Sydney...Shang Hai...Italy...Paris and London! Erm...ok, maybe not London...I am already travelling very extensively this year...but all my trips are *sigh* working trips...

24) Try lots and lots of wine! New World, Old World...it doesn't matter! Just bring them on!

25) Cook really good Chinese food!